try letting go of your feelings, whenever you feel yourself thinking about these things stop and think of something else. Try to do and think things that wont make you dwell. You also need to stop thinking that everyone hates you and is out to get you. You need to be more open and you need to let go and move on. I know it is easy for me to say and much easier said than done but you need to try. Now I hate to come in and tell you that you need to do things but I want to help you